; dreams actually talk

Even though days seem to pass quickly, they don’t. Time is a bipolar thing, it can be either on your side or against you, it depends on many things but mostly on circumstances. I don’t think coincidences actually happen, I’m not sure they don’t exist but that’s what I choose to believe, maybe it’s my faith what interferes in the way I perceive such events.

I wrote in my very first post that I was really inspired to make a big change but in order to do that I needed some time to think and interiorize some thoughts, I think it has taken more time than I expected, but it’s totally worth it. Now I can feel how my actions slowly start to shape this new me. I’m just letting go, letting things flow… 

Is it all about letting go? I’m not quite sure, I’ve had a feeling about this one thing I just can’t ignore. It’s like you know, this little voice inside your head telling you what to do, the problem is that what the voice tells me doesn’t seem like the rational thing to do, even though my heart thinks it’s right… I’m not gonna lie, it even feels right. Maybe I’m just afraid that I might fuck things up. 

I’ve been kind of struggling with a situation that’s beyond my hands, and I’ve been even dreaming about it, I’m beginning to think that maybe is a signal for me to do something about it; however, I’m willing to keep my senses wide open, I know the answers will come sooner or later. In the meantime, I’ll occupy myself in what I’ve been doing all this time: taking care of myself, and making every effort to keep the track of my happiness.

; the ritual before my birthday

It's been a while since I wrote for the first time in my blog and so today I wanted to share some thoughts (if anyone ever read this besides me lol).

Yesterday I was feeling a little low or something because of my birthday, I felt like I didn't do anything relevant in the last year so I wanted to take a walk and clear my mind. I visited some places that I considered "important" for me, places in which occurred the most relevant events last year so I could remember clearly those special moments.

There's a self-battle I've been struggling with and I thought it was the right time to end it. I took my camera, a book, and started my little tour. I tried to be conscious and let go of everything that once made me happy, I tried to forgive the people I needed to forgive, and thank for everything I was thankful for.

I don't really know what awaits for me this year, and I don't think I wanna know either. I can only hope for the best and try to be the best version of myself.    

; fountain

So yeah, I decided to write again.

I'm not sure why I do it, but it feels just right. I've been literally hibernating my ideas for a long time. I want this new blog to really reflect what I am. But in order to do that I needed some time. I needed to think and interiorize those thoughts.

I think the source of happiness and sadness is very related to love. I had a rough time at the end of last year and all I needed was a "fountain of inspiration" to get my things together and start a new cycle in my life.

That fountain happened to be iamamiwhoami new video/song. I think it's an accurate way to picture a proper end to flourish into a whole new thing. I was socked by the subtlety of the video, which represents a beautiful way of saying goodbye to everything one is to begin all over again. A fresh start with no rules but love.

I named it "Dreamy shelter" in Norwegian because Norway is a nordic country, so it is a way to connect my blog to all the mythologies, nature and feeling of the nordic culture. I'm not part of it but I want it to be part of me. I have this idea that every nordic thing has some kind of ethereal aura that promises peace. I want my blog to have that feeling for me to be comfortable whenever I post; and also to transmit warmth to the people who stop by. I want it to last, I need it to last; so I'll make my best effort to post as often as I can.

I have tendencies for music and photography, they are an important part of my life, so I think you'll see a lot of stories about my inner/outer world accompanied by songs and photos.

Meanwhile, enjoy my fountain of inspiration. The new single by iamamiwhoami.

"From watching eyes, I blindly rove, to guard my stories and find my God".

You can find more of iamamiwhoami right here.

Peace out.